Sometimes I’m so overwhelmed by everything I want to do and see in this world. There’s still so much of the United States I’d like to explore. I’m in Europe and there’s about six countries I’d like to visit in the next eighteen months. Having been overseas, I’d even like to explore more of my own country and see some of Australia when I get back home.

I feel like there’s so little time, especially with the financial restrictions that I have.

But at the same time, I’ve seen a lot more than a lot of people, especially from my hometown. And realistically, I am still so young. It’s better I know now what I want to see. I’ll just make it a goal. And I’ve done pretty well on my goals so far.

At the sales!

Goresbridge September 2014.

At the sales!

Goresbridge September 2014.

  • Me: Why is everybody I know having babies? At our age!
  • Me: Shit I'm nearly 23.



i don’t care if it’s a only a joke, please don’t make comments about how someone’s choice of field of study isn’t going to take them anywhere because it can be a great source of stress and your joke won’t help.

also, destroy the idea that we should only pursue dreams if they are likely to give you status in this capitalist piece-of-shit society.

WORD - particularly the second part.


Does it ever worry people that there’s super young horses that are competing at very high levels??? Because it kind of worries me some no matter how cool or amazing

This is something I found very interesting coming from the USA to Europe. Like, people in the US I found are generally pretty conservative with the age of horses - my trainer had a 4yo that could’ve, talent and even probably education-wise, done like Prelim by the end of his 4yo year, but she was keeping it pretty slow with him. Whereas here, in Europe, the Young Horse classes are a lot more plentiful and prestigious, so the horses will often be out and about competing at 4yo (although it’s clear to see some of them shouldn’t be!). The 4yo Young Horse jumpers do a 1.10m course, and by the 5yo they’re jumping 1.20m. I can’t remember the heights of the eventing YH, but I think it’s something like close to pre-novice (training) for the 4yo.

I think there’s a couple of reasons for this. Obviously the popularity of the YH classes here encourages people to bring out horses at a younger age. But I think also the ground here is much more forgiving, from a strictly injury-related standpoint. I was in Virginia in the USA and so much of our competition plan and fitness work was based around how hard the ground was. I know of a few horses that have been bought in Europe and shipped over to America only to not hold up to the hard ground, even with a good vetting by American standards and a flawless vetting by European standards.

Education, I guess, is another thing. Like I said, a few of the horses here in the YH classes shouldn’t be out competing, regardless of the natural talent - you can see it in the way they go, if not the results. Where I am, there’s a couple of 5yo and 6yo doing novice (prelim), a couple doing pre-novice (training), and a couple doing intro (US novice). The 4yo generally don’t do a whole lot, maybe some showjumping shows to get them used to the atmosphere. If a horse is going to be put towards the YH class, it’ll be decided fairly early on and the training will reflect that. I think being a sales barn however it’s harder to get them to the YH classes because by the time they ride decently they’re normally sold haha!

I get what you’re saying though. There’s all sorts of studies that detail the age at which horses’ bones… god I can’t think of the word, solidify I’m going to use though I think I mean fuse or something like it, and it’s definitely not before the 4yo year. I think that’s where the ground comes into play - most horses over here would be well on their way to the upper levels by 7 or 8yo (Blenheim holds a 3* for 8 and 9yo, for example), whereas I think you’d be at more risk of a long-term injury if you did that in the States. Although I guess any sort of concussive training would be damaging to underdeveloped bones!

So yeah, I’m not really presenting an opinion here - just saying what I’ve seen in two very different regions. For me, I’d be more likely than I was to do a bit more on a younger horse. But when I’ve been thinking about going home and getting a horse to sell, I’ve gone from thinking 4-5yo to 5-7yo, because ideally I’d like it further up the levels by the time I sell it in say twelve months, than would be possible if I went a little younger. :)

Also I’m 98% sure I’m getting a chest infection and despite telling everyone at work that I’m quitting, that’s not going so well either.

Workout yesterday (16/9) - didn’t happen cuz I was at RB’s helping with stuff for the website… bit slack but also could feel the muscles I’d used the day before!

Workout today: Done! Did 25 jump squats instead of normal squats and 20 ‘plank crunches’, so yay me. :) Could really feel the ab and thigh work, whoo!

So today SOYM (who I guess I can just call YM now, really) were discussing my issue with the future and the fact that I think too much. -.- Anyway I was saying how I was considering going back home for a year or so and then coming back to UK or US for education, although I didn’t know if I wanted to do that because I don’t know if the job I’m looking to qualify for is any good in Australia and I’m not sure if I want to live abroad permanently.

Anyway, she said ‘are you sure? Because you strike me as being bigger… Like wanting to do more things with horses than would be possible in Australia’.

I’m not necessarily talking about the truth of that statement, because the general view over here of Australia is that it’s fairly small-time (especially because the majority of team eventers are based in the UK anyway). But to have someone believe that about me - not even about my riding ability, because I know that would be a lie, but about me and my affinity for horses - that’s something else.

Like thanks, YM. Now I’m more confused than ever. -.-











This gives me life

How music changed from 2000-2013. 

i feel so fucking old right now…

Anyone else notice how more songs were in a minor key at the beginning of the video?

Unofficial subtitle: Justin Timberlake’s Hair 2000-2013

Lol the end

Nostalgia wow wow

so many feels

Aka The Soundtrack of my Life

(i just realised how many of the events in my life are connected to music… like wow)

"nothing will ruin your 20s more than thinking you should have your life together already."

I need to write this on every wall of my room. (via thisyearsgirls)